Friends.

Does a friend do that to you? That would be the question I've asked myself countless times these past two years. You see, I've encountered a lot of problems regarding friends in Form 4 and Form 5. Is it really my problem ? Or is it theirs ? Honestly, I don't know. But I've been silently praying that it would be theirs.

A lot of times I found myself feeling sad for what my friends did. I know, it is something inevitable, and everyone has to go through these problems sometimes. And yes, I've heard of 'Forgive and Forget'. But, what if after you forgive and forget, the same thing keeps happening over and over again, and it is you who gets hurt every time ? Do you keep forgive and forget ? Or do you just forget, about them ?

For instance, a friend of mine, John asked me to go to a trip with him weeks ago, as he was not very close with the other friends who are going. Being a friend, I agreed. We were supposed to sit together in the bus during the trip. Everything was in place, and I was looking forward to the trip. (Tonight 10.30pm)

This morning John told me that another friend who is closer to him than I am, Ben is going to the trip as well (Someone has decided not to go , which left an empty space for him). What's wrong with that you may ask ? Well, John has decided that he would be sitting Ben, instead of sitting with me. It may sound like nothing to the person who is reading this, but try to step into my shoes, and tell me it's nothing. I mean, I agreed AS A FRIEND to accompany John, even when I preferred to stay at home and play my computer games. But as soon as he found Ben to go to the trip, he ditched me in a heartbeat.

Like you've guessed, I decided not to go at first. But after being persuaded by some of my friends, I'll be going after all, since I've paid for the trip. I'll be sitting with some other friends in the back row of the bus (where there is enough space for 4 to 5 people). So that's that.

Just this afternoon, I've just discovered that ANOTHER friend of mine, Tom who is also going to the trip, is happy that Ben joined the trip last minute. Because according to him, there will be some DRAMA for him to watch. What drama ? Well you see, a girl which has some history with me, Corry will me going on the trip as well. But there's nothing between us anymore, and Tom does not know about it. It so happens that Ben and this girl has some history as well. So the DRAMA Tom was talking about is that Ben and I would do something stupid or go against each other in our attempt to impress or win Corry's heart.

Is that what you all would call it ? DRAMA ? I would certainly not. I don't think it's funny when 2 friends compete or fight against one another. But a friend is a friend, we can either accept them for who they are, or we can take them away, leaving a scar on our heart.

Well I'm going to keep them in my heart for now, for they are my friends. We shared lots of good memories together, and definitely some bad ones.

Life is difficult without friends. They are who we share laughters and tears and worries together.
And if you are very lucky, you might even find a friend who is able to change you for the better and make your life more meaningful. If anyone denies this, well, good luck with the long journey ahead.

The key is to get to know people and trust them to be who they are. Instead, we trust people to be who we want them to be. And when they're not, we cry.

p/s : All the names mentioned above are not the real names of my friends.